Friday, October 28, 2005

Seems like yesterday :D

Can't believe that an year has passed by...it just seems like yesterday ..i remember my excitement when i feasted my eyes on it...that instant i decided it has to be mine...i spent days patiently waiting to make my move and exactly the same day last year at 5.30Am much to my delight i discovered that inspiron 700m was at 50% off and i ordered it ..:D
sleek, slim and most important of all only 4 pounds so i can carry it whereever i want to go...Hmmm it was like a match made in heaven -a perfect laptop well within a grad students pay..wat more can i say other than i really love my cutie pie laptop :)
cheers
jeenu

Thursday, October 27, 2005

Innocent years..:)

In any grad students life there are days when we weep for the fact that there are only 24 hrs becos the amount of work that u have to do just could not completed in that time and still u are expected to..( iam sure it is much more hectic in work place..but since i have never been anywhere near there..ppl need to humour me here :D) and days which come at the other end of the spectrum where the damn clock will not move at all ...well today for me was one of the latter days...i came in with all the work i have to accomplish..and the mass spec broke down and along with it all my work plans for the day..i was forced to "chill" today which i did..sending emails to ppl, chatting with friends , reading literatures..and all that jazz and still the time will not run...it almost seems like it has come to an stand still and since i cant leave my lab before 5 Pm- mandatory attendance here folks..clocking 9am-5pm is essential...but my work should not be limited to that time but designed around my experiments for the day..in my budda's memorable words..as a grad student u r expected to work a minmum of 60 hours a week....the stress being on the word "minimum"......anyways here i go digressing...So basically being jobless and chatting with our own ROS brought some funny chilhood incidents to my memory ..
one such incident happened when i was in 10 the standard i think ..may be in 9 the standard..i loved to read books and my cousin decided that iam grownup enough to read one of sidney sheldon books..if i remember correctly.."if tomorrow comes " was the book....to be honest after reading nancy drew and hardy boys ..that book was racy for me and some of concepts just went way over head..( but i guess my cousin wanted to educate me ..hehehehehe)...anyways i came across this word "virgin" i did not know what it meant at that time ..usually when i dont understand something ya something is bothering me i usually talk/ask my dad about it...So i went up and asked my dad "wat does a virgin mean??"
well i come from a very conservative south indian Brahmin family..and i could tell even at that time my dad was shocked..but he managed to say that any unmarried woman is called a virgin..and i was pretty satisfied with that explanation for a long time..:)
As i said the person i narrated this incident today thought it was funny and that i should blog about it..So here is one to days of innocence... :D

Wednesday, October 26, 2005

To all the fellow scorpions...

It is that time of the year when the zodiac sign scorpio is at the helm....so i decided to copy and paste some interesting facts that i found about this zodiac sign..:)
Even though i believe we make our own destiny..some of the traits commonly associated with a zodiac sign makes sense to me..as i can see some of them in me ( only the good ones..hehehehehe..)
cheers
jeenu
SCORPIO

TraditionalScorpio Traits

  • Determined and forceful
  • Emotional and intuitive
  • Powerful and passionate
  • Exciting and magnetic

On the dark side....

  • Jealous and resentful
  • Compulsive and obsessive
  • Secretive and obstinate
Scorpio is the eighth Sign of the Zodiac, and you shouldn't take that lightly. You shouldn't take Scorpios lightly, either. Those born under this Sign are dead serious in their mission to learn about others. There's no fluff or chatter for Scorpios, either: these folks will zero in on the essential questions, gleaning the secrets that lie within. Scorpios concern themselves with beginnings and endings, and are unafraid of either; they also travel in a world which is black and white and has little use for gray. The curiosity of Scorpios is immeasurable, which may be why they are such adept investigators. These folks love to probe and know how to get to the bottom of things. The fact that they have a keen sense of intuition certainly helps.
It's the Scorpion which symbolizes Scorpios, and it's no accident. Much like the Scorpion would rather kill itself than be killed, those born under this Sign are the ones who are in ultimate control of their destiny. It is life on the Scorpion's terms, too, since these folks promote their agenda (they are quite the executives) and see to it that things go forward. Others may find this overbearing (it can be) and even self-destructive, but that's the beauty of the Scorpion: these folks have tremendous regenerative powers, much like the literal Scorpion can lose its tail and promptly grow a new one. Fearless Scorpions rarely lose, per se, they just keep on going, since they are stubborn and determined to succeed (this Scorpio trait is in keeping with the Fixed Quality assigned to this Sign). Scorpios work as hard as they do so they can someday sit back and feel satisfied with themselves. These folks are intense, passionate and filled with desire. They're also complex and secretive, so don't expect to get much out of them, lest they become suspicious and exit stage left. It's best not to bet against Scorpios, either, since these folks are surprisingly resourceful.
Scorpio is ruled by the Planets Mars and Pluto. Mars was the God of War in ancient Roman mythology and is the first (and most ancient) ruler of Scorpio. When Pluto was discovered in the 20th century, it was also assigned to this Sign. Pluto was known as the God of the Underworld in ancient Roman times, so when coupled with Mars, expect some intense energy to head toward Scorpions here on Earth. This planetary combo makes for people who are motivated, penetrating and aware. Scorpions don't miss much, since they are highly attuned to the vibrations of others. They are intuitive, probing and very focused on knowing who's who and what's what. Scorpions can lose their temper (and even become vengeful) when someone gets in their way, so it's best to give them plenty of room. Remember, they're unafraid, and a loss today simply means an opportunity for victory tomorrow.
The Element associated with Scorpio is Water. As opposed to the 'roiling seas' seen in other Water Signs, a better motto for Scorpions would be 'still waters run deep.' Those born under this Sign are as emotional as their waterborne brethren, it's just that they're not as likely to show it. The Scorpio's emotions are repressed, kept under cover. Again, secrets to be used another day. That said, be aware that these folks are clever, perceptive and always in the mix. Their ability to see into things can sometimes be a curse for Scorpions, however, since they can take an insignificant matter and turn it into a huge slight. Beware the Scorpion who feels crossed! These folks can turn vindictive in no time flat. Luckily, once Scorpions catch their breath, they will return to their usual determined and loyal (albeit strong-willed) ways. Finally, while Scorpions aren't above some subtle manipulation to get what they want, they'd much rather take a scientific, even mystical path. The Scorpio-born are powerful and passionate, qualities which serve them well, as long as they don't let them deteriorate into self-indulgence or compulsion.
Scorpios love competition in both work and play, which is why they'll air it out in sports and games. Extreme sports are right up the Scorpion's alley, as is most anything which will test their mettle. They've got to have an adversary, since it makes the game that much more fun. The Scorpion's colors? Powerful red and serious black. When it comes to love, though, Scorpions soften up a bit and are caring and devoted with their lovers, even if they do hold on a bit tight. Scorpions are also lusty in the extreme (how else?), so they need to be mindful of their reproductive organs.
The great strength of the Scorpio-born is in their determination, passion and motivation. Scorpions don't know the word quit, which is why they usually get the job done. A powerhouse? Like no other

Compatible Zodiac Signs for Scorpio
Capricorn
Pisces
Cancer
Virgo

Incompatible Zodiac Signs for Scorpio
Sagittarius
Aquarius
Aries
Gemini
Leo
Libra

Variable Zodiac Signs for Scoria
Scorpio
Taurus

Friday, October 21, 2005

On radio today morning...

As I was getting ready today morning I was listening to this radio show" valentine in the morning" on Hot 101.9 FM..It usually plays some new hit peppy songs in the morning with some good natured fun going on between the presenters of the show :)... But today a girl Jaime( I think that was her name ) calls up and tells these guys on the show that she has been dating some guy for 6 months and he has asked her to move in with him..But she has a feeling that he is hiding something from her and she wants to check on him..
so Valentine pretends to be this guy calling from a Florist shop and tells this girls boyfriend(BF from now on..too lazy to type ..:D) that they are doing a promotion and his name got picked off some database and now he can send free 2 dozen red roses any person of his choice..and this dude names some other girl and asks them to send the flowers there...The girl Jaime was listening to this conversation all along.... and the minute the dude says the name and address of this other girl..Valentine steps in and says that he is on a radio show and that he has been busted and all..
The girl as u can imagine was very upset and she yelled at this guy for being unfaithful and this guy actually has the audacity to say that u have guys working with u and u are close to this Gay friend of yours..( which makes no sense to me why this guys should be jealous of a gay guy ...)...
The guy then hangs up the phone ..and this girl is crying on the phone...It seems to me like as much as she wanted to check on this guy she could not accept the fact that this guy was cheating on her..( even though in all fairness I think a guy sending some girl flowers do not qualify as absolute proof of cheating..still I think the girl needs to talk to his guy before making any major decisions...just my opinion)
After listening to this show..I started thinking about the concept of "washing your dirty linen in public"...I feel that the girl should have confronted the guy directly instead of comming on to a radio show ..for that matter there are lot of television"reality shows" that do this kind of thing too....I wonder wat motivates people to open their lives for everyone to see and comment on....
Also, once u have decided to check on your patner or someone..u need to be prepared for any consequences..becos there is a good probability that answer can be either one.....
so wat does the Junta here think about this...???
jeenu.

Wednesday, October 19, 2005

Don't quit

My sister gave me this poster about 2 years back when things were not working out so great for me personally as well as professionally..i dont know who wrote this poem ..but whenever i have been down reading it has always made me look on the positive side of things..:)
so here's the poem
Don't quit
When things go wrong as they sometimes will,
When the road you are travelling seems all uphill,
when you are feeling low and the stress is high,
and you want to smile but you have to sigh,
when worries are getting you down a bit,
rest if you must but dont ever quit.

Success if failure turned inside out,
a silver lining in the clouds of doubt,
you never can tell how close you are-
it may be near when it seems so far,
so trust in you when you are hardest hit...
its when things go wrong that you must not quit..:)
-anonymous

iam just quoting this poem from my memory so i might have missed something or have rephrased a bit..but throughout the poem i see the beauty of not giving up on your dreams...
and working hard for it..

cheers
jeenu

Monday, October 17, 2005

Of crying collegues...

I usually have no reason to like monday mornings..for one it means that i have to wait 5 more days for the weekend..which actually for me means only 6-8 hours of lab work that day and may be a couple of delicious hours in the morning to sleep.Hmmmmmmm.....that is perhaps the best part able to sleep in till 9 in the morning...well here i go digressing..so back to the topic..the other reason i hate mondays is becos of the Group meetings that are only for 2 hours but after it gets over i feel so tired and drained..mainly becos of the petty politics in the lab..:(
it was not always like this in our group but these days everyone seems to get on everyones nerves and my collegues all seem like a 5 year petulant kids who want everything their way...
so i got a new sonicator and some nice lab toys for myself after 3 years of struggling on things that are hopelessly beyond redemption..i decided that is it ..marched myself in to my budda's office ( My Boss :D ) and told him i need to buy pipette sets and a new sonicator..if u think i got in trouble with my budda u guys were wrong..he did not even say a peep he just nodded and said order them....:)
I did and all my new toys came in ..i was so happy and that is when it started...my lab is a good international mix.. we have a dilligent , smart desi..that is me..a chinki collegue, a french post doc, a kiwi, a jamaican and not to mention my budda is an australian....and some american collegues and most of the graduate students are girls and their lies the problem... my american collegue C is an year senior to me and she is like this spoiled brat who has to have watever she wants...
well she wanted to use my sonicator ...just for the heck of it and for no particular reason...but i ordered it for a specfic purpose and someone else using it might contaminate it....she literally threw a hissy fit...all this happened last week..
today i was supposed to present in the group meeting and after my presentations ppl were allowed to ask questions and she was really making some irritating remarks saying this assumption of mine is faulty and presentation was long..and blah..blah...blah...
so my budda finally asked her wat her problem was and then she burst in to tears right there in the group meeting and said that she needs the sonicator to dissolve her compound and that iam not allowing her to do so....
my boss looked at me and i told him iam using it for a specific thing and the reason i said she cant use it is becos watever i have in their might kill her stuff..well she was crying and so my boss was like let her use it...
i felt so mad....may be i need to throw a hissy fit to get things done too and may be cry...:(
but i can never do that in front of others.. may be its about time i learnt that too becos this collegue of mine seems to get watever she wants this way...
it is so depressing...:(
jeenu

Saturday, October 15, 2005

Garba sans saree experience ..:)

As the title suggests i decided to go in a nice sime salwar suit becos i wanted to dance a lot..being from south india the only garbas i have been are here in US...:) this is probably the 4th garba iam attending and for the last three i have never even considered the option of wearing a saree...even though i would love to flaunt it..(Aria i do that all the time in front of my mirror:D..my roomie says that iam still not out of that kintergarden phase..)..N was the one who started this idea and finally N and S dressed up in saree ..they looked very pretty too :)
But the actual garba was a real bummer..becos we were all so engrossed in getting dressed..we were very late and we missed the Garba raas..made it just in time for dandiya lessons..since i had been to 3 Garbas before this it was no problem for me to master it and actually N and S danced pretty well too without their saree falling apart..iam so gonna go in saree for next garba..anyways back to the anticlimatic evening the beat for dandiya was so slow that i almost fell asleep..at one point i expected the next dandiya song to be "waqt ne kiya kya haseen sitam.."..lol
but it was fun with N, S and ofcourse Mr.A was there :)
i danced a lot with uncles and aunties this time actually something that i have never done in the last three and it was fun..other than one uncle repeatedly hitting my fingers with the dandiya stick every single time i got to dance with him.....:D
but all in all i missed the fun i had in last 3 garbas where i would dance with abandon ..iam usually so tired and hungry at the end of it that we all go out eat something at like 1 am and then sleep for like 12 hours after that :)...the garba event got over at 11 with aarti and here also i was surprised when instead of " jai jagadish hare.." they started some other song..everyone was so quite during aarti as no one knew how to sing that song....
i dont know why i felt so cheated yesterday....hopefully next garba can recreate the magic of first garba for me ..
cheers
jeenu

Friday, October 14, 2005

Garba tonite :D

i just cant wait for the last couple of hours of the work day to roll out so i can go to garba..i still have not decided whether i should wear a salwar ya saree...me and N spent all yesterday night getting ready for garba.:) she wanted to wear saree i cant just imagine playing dandiya in saree..always had this morbid fear of me stepping on my saree pleats and it comming undone ..:)
well 6 more hours to go before garba starts....:)
jeenu:)

Thursday, October 13, 2005

Last weekend..:)

i had a good surprise last weekend when D a good friend of mine just dropped in at 3 am saturday morning..:)
i was surprised as well as touched he drove all the way from rochester NY to Virginia non stop for 11 hours..all becos when i talked to him on wednesday i was pretty upset about things at work....i was touched and it turned out to be a great weekend.... we went to mandir on sunday and i attended my first durga pooja..it was a really nice experienceand going to mandir always calms me down and helps me to focus which is precisely what it did :)....he left early monday morning..
but the fact that he came to just cheer me up made me feel good ...i am just grateful to have such a good friend and i wish in future i can do the same for him :)
cheers
jeenu

Monday, October 10, 2005

Navaratri days :)

Navaratri the word brings to my memory probably the best season of the year ..not only becos it is a usually the time of my quaterly holidays in school..becos after that i know diwali will be right around the corner and "karthigai" on which my birthday falls comes next...During navaratri my aunts and my cousins also come over to our place to be with us and that turns our quiet home in to some nice "chatram"( big halls ) as my thatha ( Grand pa) used to call it and not very fondly either becos he is always given the responsibility of taking care of the kids..there was me , my sister, cousins S and B from our first aunt and cousin V from the second aunt..myself, B and V were in same age group and were known to drive any sane person insane with out antics...During navaratri we three usually got dressed up in the evenings to go and see" gollu bommai" (display of mud dolls for the duration of navaratri) in everyones house in our area and to invite others to see our "gollu" in our house .Main purpose of these visits however is to get some delicious "sundals" ..we sometimes never even waited till we came home to eat sundals..we just finished it all on the way and by the end of navaratri season all there of us visited Dr. ranjit for aliments ranging from Stomach aches to food poisoining ..lolOne such memorable Gollu visit happened when i was in standard 7 th..cricket set was the new mud doll set introduced in the market and only Rani aunty's son had gone to city and gotten it..so we all went to her place to see the set and B was the most eager beaver among us three and when we went there B went straight to look at the set and aunty then went to get us some snacks... then B told me that the bowlers action is not right and decided to set it right...and he broke the doll...me ,V and B were so scared becos ppl consider it very inauspicious to break mud dolls especially one on display..so we did that one logical thing that kids do after breaking things..we all just ran away from that house..hehehehehe...on the way home we three decided to keep it quiet and no to tell anyone..but my mom could clearly see that something was wrong..so by the end of that night she knew wat was wrong and next day she made us go to rani auntys house next day and apologise..but aunty was very nice and she said that we were kids so it is ok...anyways after that incident the cricket set lost its charm and we tried to avoid rani auntys house as much as we can... :)
cheers
jeenu

PS one more to the soppy blog :D

Friday, October 07, 2005

E and me :)

I woke up in the middle of night yesterday to the "Hungarian dance tune"( my cell phone ring tone) I was in my dream land and was pulled rudely from there ..."sigh"..It was E calling and I was not in a great mood to be woken up in the middle of the night..and I said "Hello"
then E said " Hello" we played the back and forth hello couple of more times and then I was at my wits end and as nicely as possible I asked him if that is all our conversation for night is gonna be ...becos like any sane person who has to get to work in the morning by 8 I need my 7 hours of beauty sleep... He then realized that he is three hours behind me and apologized and I felt bad for talking to him like that so I said it is ok( I always try to accommodate for E ) and we just started talking about the first time he called me in US ..That was also in the middle of night for me ...So on and so forth...Needless to say I did not come in to work at 8 today morning :)
Anyways E is the third guy in the group of eight ..and he is in Seattle ...I dont actually remember the first time I met E but he says that I came to his college during undergrad for some cultural festival and that he and another guy were our guide there ....I don't have a clue to that incident ever..
Anyways the time I met E in the masters was in our class room...After the college had started out for couple of days..We had that really boring quantum chemistry class and it usually was after lunch and the prof teaches the class using a projector so the windows were shut and no light...iam sure half the junta here can imagine the consequence of such sequence of events...most of us doze off...other then than weird few who actually seem to understand the class...E was sitting in the first row I think and suddenly in the middle of the class Prof M looks at him and asks E are u feeling sleepy and that guy actually says yes and the prof asked him if he wants to wash his face and come and E actually sat there thinking about it and after a min said ok and left the class and he came back 20 mins later just in time for the class to get over...I found that incident to be funny..
anyways E and V ( the guy) were great friends so whenever V used to come and talk to me ya visit me in the hostel E used to tag along...He was very shy person and was not that communicative at all...when V is around he can tolerate the company of gals but in absence of V he gets pretty uneasy...So he just runs away from there ..and I mean it literally...there were discussions in the hostel between the girls in our class as to what this guy will do if we all corner him in the third floor and A always said he probably will jump off from the building if he cant reach the stairs...
anyways that was how he was in first two semesters..and then one day V asked me to come to canteen with him for tea and along with V and E also tagged along....We started talking about movies and books and stuff and I was amazed at how much E knew all about it..He just could not stop talking and after 3 hours ..I knew that we will great friends......That was the day he started talking and I just could not get him to stop till now ...hehehehehehe...
I learnt about lot of things that have happened to him and the reason why he is so painful shy and such an introvert...more l learnt more I respected the guy....I could sometimes see in the way he talks all the emotional scars there...and how he tries to make the best of what he has....all in all he is a great friend of mine and I hope that his future will make up for all his losses in the past ....
cheers
jeenu

Thursday, October 06, 2005

Jeenu's Friends-2

Now that I have started off with V the guy..I think I should talk about V the girl :)
I still remember the night I met V and A...It was the night my parents have dropped me off in the hostel ( this is in Masters) and after the initial setting up of things..I had nothing to do and was feeling kinda of home sick that was probably the first night that I had spent outside the house without either of my parents...anyways there I was walking in to Mess hall for dinner and A looked up at me from her table and smiled..since I did not know anyone I walk up to A and sat there with my plate and she asked me if I was J ..I was so surprised ( also for an instant thought I was popular ..hehehehehe) that she knew my name but I found out later that she just looked up at the ppl who have joined chem and are going to stay in the hostel...So she kinda figured since I was in the old wing of the hostel at that time that I must be so and so......:))
As I was chitchatting with A we saw a girl run in to the mess hall and she looked pretty scared and to our amusement we saw her being chased by our mess cat with its family of kittens..It was so funny the way they kept chasing her from table to table and finally she landed up in ours..A vaguely knew V and she introduced us but I think V was trying her level best to avoid the cute kitties :))
I then became her" knight in shining armour" when I shooed away the cats..She still some times calls me that when ever we talk about her cat rescue...
the cats always chased V whenever she entered the mess hall and it had led to some hilarious moments for us over the time we stayed in our hostel.
that night A. V and me we talked about everything and anything under sun till 2 am in my hostel room and I think that was the trend through out our hostel stay :)
ofcourse we were later joined by N and four of us were inseparable since then.. even though we go to different schools all over the US we still are as close to each other as we were in hostel :)
V and N are gonna get married this feb iam hoping to go to India to visit them....
so here is to the awesome four of 211( that was how ppl called us in the hostel and the No is my room number in hostel )
cheers
jeenu :)

Tuesday, October 04, 2005

Jeenu's Friends

Since yesterday night i have been thinking about my friends from india..i was looking through some of the old photos from "singhara chennai" ..:)
so decided to blog about some of my good buddies... we were a gang of 8 and the first one iam gonna blog abt is V
i have known V for almost 9 years now..we did our undergrad together in MCC and the first time i met him in the college i got a feeling that he is a" Rowdy" and i was also opinionated enough to voice that out to ppl in my class and eventually V to came know about it ..after that he always made sure he acted like one in front of me even now he kids me about it all the time:)...one thing that really caught my attention was his sense of humour..he can make any one laugh..even our Grumpy maths ma'am found him very funny and was always partial to him...
The first that we had a good arguement and probably the first time i talked to him for more than 5 mins :) was after a maths class where he got me in to trouble ..he as usual was making some really funny comments in the back rows and i unfortunately was sitting right before him..his sense of timing was so good i could not help but laugh at his antics in the back seat and our Ma'am saw me giggling away and in front of entire class chastened me for not paying attention and to my amazement pointed to V right behind me as said that i must pay more attention to class like him.. i was so mad that at the end of the class i just screamed bloody murder at him...probably the first time i has seen him speechless too...
he came and apologized next day but i was still mad and continued to ignore that dude..until we got in to the same college for our Masters program..i had to move in to hostel for that and i was pretty home sick most of the times..( sometimes just plainly sick from the hostel food :D )
i guess he was feeling that too and we just kinda become buddies.. he was the best friend that i could have asked for..there were times when i was very upset he always found a way to make me laugh...always there for me when i needed a friend...i still remember the times when i will be busy working late and night and dying of hunger and he will just come over to my lab with hot samosa's...or just the times i used to make fun of rajnikant becos it plainly irked him:)
the impromptu trips to besant nagar beach..."Sigh" pattani sundal on the beach....:)
V also got in to an university in the east coast and we are in constant touch with each other...he also came and visited me this may..and it was fun..with him as with couple of my old friends whenever we all talk or together it seems like we are in a time capsule ..not matter how long it has been we have not called each other..just a Hi seems to be enough to realise how close we are all together..:)
to my buddies
cheers
jeenu

Monday, October 03, 2005

Enlightened soul.....???

N was in town for this weekend and as usual we all went to our favourite mexican place for lunch...and we were talking about religion , philosophy and spirituality..one of those days when u r in mood for the deep stuff and after the last week..i was in a very deep, dark mood..
we started talking about what is the significance of religion..the topic shifted to the fundamental principles of "sanadhana dharma" and what makes u a "Enlightened soul"...My roomie S feels that discipline and strict following of her religious scriptures will ultimately lead u to become a realised soul..or the least a spiritual person..
somehow i feel that religion is not all about discipline and scriptures..they are like guiding light and more "enlightened" a person is less will they be bound to the scriptures and more free will be their thoughts...and best way is to experience life and to understand it in all its vibrant colours, smell, taste and texture....
so wat do u guys out there think.....how would u define an enlightened soul???