Nilay days-5

Janvi smiled to herself as she sipped her chai..Thinking about the first time they went to downtown together always made her smile. As Nilay had said they became great friends. janvi smiled as memories of different things that they did together flashed in her mind..hiking, canoeing, playing badminton.. and now she has to decide...tears started trickling down janvi's eyes ..she wiped them away defiantly and thought to herself " i seem to be crying a lot these days..i cant even believe iam crying sitting in the coffee shop...wat is wrong with me.."
Anger seemed to resurface in her as she ground her teeth and said to herself" no one who will make you cry is worth it.." but again she started thinking” but wat about the person who made u smile...wat about all the good times u had with them..dont they amount to anything.?"
The memory of her dancing with nilay for the india day program came to her mind..with it all the fun they had together putting the dance together also floated in to her mind .....
"did he really care about me..??" the question popped in her mind suddenly and as soon as it did, memories of nilay cooking kitchadi for her when she was sick came in to mind..of him walking in cold for 20 mins to get her medicine , of him just pampering her like a baby when she had fever...of how he met even some of her unreasonable demands...came to her mind.."yes he cared for me.. why am i talking in past tense..i know he cares about me even now..." janvi said to herself.
"God why is life so full of difficult choices...."
"well i dont know dearie..but i can def give u a refill on your chai.." Gail said..janvi jumped as gail started talking she had not realized that she had said the last sentence aloud...
"thanks...appreciate that" janvi tried to smile ..but the cheerfulness she usually exuded was not there today.
"are u feeling well ???" gail asked" never seen u this quiet or alone for that matter.. your friend not joining you today??"
Times she and Nilay had spent talking in the same coffee shop flooded her mind..
"no ...he is busy..i think" janvi replied….
"ok girlie...let me get u another cup of chai.." gail replied
"thanks..gail"
Janvi thought about the last time they met at the coffee shop....

"hey" Nilay said..he looked like he had not slept for days and he had a week’s worth of stubble on his face
"hey" janvi replied..waiting for him say more..she was all composed outside but inside a war was raging inside. a part of her wanted to just let go of all this facade and cry to him..ask him to explain all that stuff that had happened...but a part of her wanted to tear him apart and hurt him as much as he had hurt her..
"how are you..?'' nilay asked
"wat do u think..after all that has happened..wat do u expect me to say..." janvi replied..it came out so coldly....i need to be calm..i need for him to explain it to me...i need to give him a fair chance to explain himself..she told herself.
"wat is happening Nilay..is that all true??..i thought we were good friends....." janvi trailed off
" we are good friends..more than good friends......." nilay said" i did not want any of this to happen...i did not mean it to happen.. u mean a lot to me...iam sorry.."
"where does this leave us..." janvi asked him..she was feeling so numb..
"i dont know....i dont want to lose you..." nilay whispered..
"i guess then the decision is in my hands..then..." janvi said " u have to tell me..is it all true..watever she and raja said???"
"yes...but believe me i did not want to hurt you..u have to understand that...i never wanted to hurt you..and i did not want to lose you either....i know i should have been the one to tell you" Nilay could not bear to look at janvi
Tears trickled down janvi's eyes.." then i guess ..there is nothing left to say anymore....i have to go now...bye" janvi got up and left...

"It has been almost a week since that day" janvi thought sipping from her fresh cup of chai..." we were so happy together...why did things have to change now...i know he cares.."
Her mind turned to the day when things changed...

She and subha were sitting in her apartment watching "finding Nemo" it was their favorite movie ..
"i just love Dory's character.." subha giggled..
"i just adore this whole concept.." janvi also smiled with her " may be coming Halloween u can dress as dory the fish...."
Subha sticked out her tongue and said " Fat chance.."
There was knock on the door and subha jumped up " that must be Abhay..i told him i was watching " finding nemo" and he said he wanted to watch too....so i invited him is that ok..."
"its ok yaar..anyways he is after all my extended roomie.." janvi smiled mischeviously...
Subha Blushed and went to open the door and let abhay in
" hey extended roomie.." said janvi
Subha made a face from behind abhay's back
"hey J" abhay said " thought Nilay janaab will be here...now iam all alone..."
"well we dont eat guys.." janvi replied " especially ones who wears glasses. bad for our health.." and both the girls burst out giggling..
Abhay rolled his eyes and flopped on the couch.
" so wat do u girls have for snack.." abhay asked
" well we just finished chips and salsa...." subha replied " but we have some salted peanuts..do u want some.."
"okie" abhay visibly perked up ...
" so have you girls seen raja.." abhay asked
"wat do u think.." janvi replied
" i know you girls can’t tolerate that guy and sometimes i can’t too..anyways yesterday there was a big fight between raja and nilay and we have not seen that guy since then…. " Abhay said
" wat" both subha and janvi said simultaneously..
" yeah..i dont know wat was that about but i have never seen Nilay this furious... he just threw Raja out of our apartment and in choicest words told him to stay out of his personal life..." Abhay said
" well it is about time" said subha.." did u know that guy came over to our place once and was staying stuff like U girls should be careful of nilay.."
" Nilay did not tell me anything about the fight..." janvi mused to herself…
Right then there was a knock on their apartment door ......